single vs married

semalam 2 orang kawan aku tanya.
" apa yang hang rasa beza masa kahwin dan masa single.apa yang hang ralat?"

aku just jawab,
" depends.. kalo ang sosial (maksud aku; jenis suka lepak,hangout,p bercuti sana sini), n hang dapat partner yang jenis macam tu (sosial & sporting), alhamdulillah. sama mcm kalo hang spisis xdak kawan,bergaul dengan orang dalam rumah, jiran2, then kalo ang dpt partner jenis family man,home man.baguslah."

" tapi pada pendapat aku, masa bujang single mingle ni, better ang buat apa yang hang nak buat, nk p vacation sorang2, nk freehair (yg ni pikir seniri).. apa sajalah... sebab mungkin boyfriend ang la ni,mcm ok,sosial..tp mungkin bila ang dh kawen nanti,dia bertukar menjadi seorang family man yang warak,alim dan sewaktu dengannya tapi pada masa tu jiwa ang memberontak,nk buat macam2..sebab tu aku suruh hang buat apa yang hang nak buat.so once ang dah kahwin, ang dh puas dah..so masa untuk menjadi isteri mithali,"ye,bang.." heheh.. "

tapi Alhamdulillah, setaakat lani, laki aku xsekat untuk aku beraktiviti bebas bersama kawan2 aku.. selalu ja aku lepak dengan depa. weekend kadang2 tengok  wayang..(padahal aku tau, dia suka aku keluar lg,sbb kalo dok umah aku akan kacau dia..tambah2 kalo time dia main game..hehe..) yang penting apa apa pun,sentiasa berbincang ngan partner hampa. masa mula2 kahwin memang susah, sebab kita tgh cuba utk adapt dengan cara masing2, aku lani pun masih cuba mengenalpasti identiti 'lelaki klasikku' itu..hehhe..

macam ada ayat nak tambah tapi kehilangan kata2..sampai aku jumpa kembali katakataku itu..:p
...entry ni aku cuba untuk menulis dengan tulisan yang penuh, kurangkan shortform..hehe..

lari

korang pernah rasa nak lari?
lari dari rumah?
lari dari seseorang?
lari dari sesuatu?

aku rasa nak lari dari masalah.eh tak..aku rasa aku nak lari dari semua orang yang aku kenal..
aku nak start fresh..ada butang F5?aku nak refresh!
T__T

work life

19.10.2010 aritu genap aku keja sini slama 2tahun..dh lama kan...aku pun xsangka dh lama aku keja sini.. btw aku keja kampeni develop web..kampeni melayu, kcik ja..aku idup bsama jatuh bgn kampeni..byk erti kehidupan, life, bisnes, cara org 'kita' jatuhkan 'kita'.. dan aku sangat bersyukur..at least aku nmpak apa yg kawan2 aku xnmpak..especially yg xkeja ngn swasta...biasala..lain tmpt, lain cara politiknya..hehe..

aku start keja ni from 0..dr web designer, aku dh jd web developer. hurm...jeles la gak tgk kwn2 pakat jd pegawai besaq..hehe...tp terima seadanya..dan aku jalankan tugas aku sbg peekerja dengan jayanya..:)

aku start keja ni di bwh sorang boss kecik(lebih kurangla..sr. programmer kt sini,yg jugak kwn big bos).dlm masa sethn dia buat prangai(pjg cite..short-kwn mkn kwn-)...so kampeni aku mcm nk rebah..n ditaburkan kata2 dusta akampeni aku ni akan lingkup sbb xdak dia...so tpaksa la aku dan boss berhempas pulas bngunkan balik kampeni ni..bsama sorang lg staf.skang ni, Alhamdulillah dh ok la sikit...dan dgr2 kampeni yg dia lari masuk tu sdg alami proses2 kejatuhan dan org kampeni sana nk kami wat sistem baru utk bersaing.....hurm...mcam2...

cite pasai boss aku, dia org kelantn, berbinikan lecerer,anak 2..boss aku ok, cuma kdg2 terlupa, kena ingtkan dia slalo..another staff ni sangt mnyakitkan ati aku lately..tmbh2 bila dia bwk anak2 dia mai opis, mcm arini..dats y, aku xleh pokus wat keje, so dok tulih blog...wat qeja merapu..;(

apa lg eh..dh lama xupdate blog, tmbh2 sejak ada fb..setiap aari dok luah kot fb ja..xdan nk hapdet blog..hehe..

nntla update lg...

olredi tag!

terlampau lama tglkan blog neh..byk sgt nk tulis tp sgt xdak masa..sgt bz...
so back to December...
i'm officially engaged wit incek lelaki klasik on 3rd dec 2009..hehe.. xde plan pun nk engaged..sumanya tiba2..dlm ms sebulan lebih jek..Alhamdulillah..dh selesai satu phase..nmk cite proses2 pun cm mls nk menaip.hhehe..
baju aku beli kt butik membe aku..mekap kt kedai..cupcake utk door gift belah sana, disediakn oleh my siste..aku buat senirik bekas utk letak cupcake itu..wat cukup2 20 kotak je..haha~~ tu pun aku tdo kui 5pagi..nk sgt wat senirik..hantaran pun aku n akk aku wat..rs nyesal lak wat cantik2..hahha~~nnt nk kawen xde idea dh..mls lak nk letak gamba byk2..




dah la mls nk letak..kang tak pasal nk mecodingkan blogspot ni lak..adeh..so setel satu hal dlm idop aku..next entry lak..nk wat byk2 post..:D

20062009

hei..today, i'm 27..hakhakhak..tgk nombor rasa banyak je..tp dr segi diri aku..rsnya byk lg yg kurang ni..repair?sometimes!...mm...

at last.. @ 930 br dpt msg dr chenta ati ku...sedeh gak..sbb aku tgu dr smlm.. tp dia bitau dia msg pg tadi masa dia mms gamba..tp mmg xde..ntah le...td borak2 psl kawen..hukhuk.. dia tny, nak wat loan ke...aku ckp, better bg 2 2 stable dulu kot..stakat loan nk kawen mmg boleh..life after marriage camne lak..ngn loan kete, loan ptptpu, loan utk kawen tu, sara idop, bills..tu kalo dok umh mak bapak..kalo menyewa..camne?jauh ke aku pk?xjauh kan..benda yg mmg kena pk if nk kawen.mmg la chenta ati kena cr duet, nak idop, tp kita as a wife, mesti nk kehidupan yg selesa utk 2 2 kan..mmmm..xpelah, ada jodoh xkemana..:D pray for me ha..

ape lagi eh..
ha..thanx for all my fren yg wish thru sms, fb, ym n so on..aku ameen kan aje apa yg korang doakan utk aku..lebiu alll..

slamat hari lahir utk aku yg ke 27, 20062009..moga aku bahagia dgn caraku..
caraku dan caramu berbeza..huhuh..

4 tahun sudah berlalu..

arini 30 mei 2009 genap 4 tahun ayah meninggal..
rasa mcm br je.. n kdg2 x rasa pun dia dh xde...yela dulu ayah slalo masuk kuar PMC(Putra Medical Centre)..Time aku cuti je, dia masuk wad...so xde terasa sgt.. tp bila pakteh (abg ayah yg 2nd) meninggal pd 25 mei 2009, 5 ari lepas...terasa sgt...rindu ayah.. nk sedekah Yassin,tgh 'cuti'...
Kalo ayah ada...aku rs idup aku lebih bermakna.. n lebih terurus.. aku suka ada org wat keputusan dlm idop aku sbb aku xreti nk wat keputusan..n bg aku keputusan ayah mmg memuaskan ati aku..kcuali masa dia nk juai volkswagen dia..sayang sgt keta tu..tgkla someday..kalo ada duet lebih, leh g cr n beli balik keta tu..what else yg aku leh cite psl ayah..bg aku, wpun ayah org yg baran, tegas..aku sayang dia..dia ja paham aku..tgk kain baju raya pun dia dh tau, yg mana satu kain aku punya..byk lg yg ayah tau pasai aku..
aku nk lelaki yg mcm ayah dlm idop aku..rasa2 mcm dh jumpa..skali ada prob la plak..leh ke dia jd cm ayah..xbyk sket pun xpe.. yg penting dia syg aku..
currently mood aku rs nk kawen, xtau nape...letih la..sapa la yg bakal jd husband aku ye... aku nak org yg leh jaga aku, dr idop sampai mati..yg leh tolak ansoq ngn aku..yg paham aku mcmana..yg boleh bentuk aku jd isteri Solehah, insyaAllah..yg penting leh kawal aku..bukan aku kawal dia..huhu~~ so anyone?haha~~
borang ade kat kaunter di depan ye.. 2 singget!!>.:p

kerja oh kerja!!

@ 13th may 2009 jabatan pelajaran malaysia telah mengadakan temuduga terbuka di setiap negeri ..aku fokus di kebanyakan negeri..especially kedah la..sbb ada negeri lain yg anjurrkan pada ari lain.

disebabkan prob keje..aku pun pegi gak...aku g ngn acu..kalo ikutkan iklan yg aku donlod, time pendaftaran bermula 830pg-1tghari n temuduga bermula 830pg-5ptg kalo xsalah..ada 4 jawatan ditawarkan, peg. tadbir, guru siswazah, pen peg tadbir n pembantu tadbir..suma jawatan berstatus kontrak, dr jun 2009 sampai dis 2009..erm 6 bulan je.. yg jawtn peg tadbir n guru tu gaji rm2k, pen peg gajinya plak rm1.6k or 1.8k,. pembbntu tadbir aku xtgk plak..erm.. kontrak for service..xkesah la.. asaikan ada keje, ada gaji..hehe..

erm pada aritu, aku g ngn acu kui 745..sampai kat trafic lite nk masuk ke situ dah jammed dah..iskisk...ikut ati mmg rs nk balik sambung tdo je.heehe..yela q utk parking je dh brapa lama...tp sempat lg la kami usha mengusha..ahha~~ bohsan sey..

after parking..tros g ke dewan..nasib kami tny pacik yg jaga kat situ, kalo x kami dah berator line ape je.. sbb org ramai2 q kat situ, pakai q je...actually ada 4 pintu, bhagi ikut jawatan yg nak dimintak..at first kami q kat jwtn guru siswazah..pjg gile..last2 wat keputusan, apply peg tadbir sudah.haha..pegi je, xramai yg q situ..q punya q, ada sorang minah ni, slumber je ptg q, mula2 tny2 acu, apantah..slumber lak tu nk ptg aku, nak masuk line ..aku wat slumber folo rapat2..haha~~bukn ape, harap rupe je lawa sket..tp perangai huduh..haha~~ x pk ke, sikit punya raamai yg q blkg kitorang..last2 dia selit tros masuk pintu depan..sakit hati kami tgk..biaqla..mintak2 dia xdpt keje ni..mmg jenis muka kering-hati kering..:)) after q, masuk dlm dewan, q lagik tp sambil duduk sambil isi borang (proses pendaftaran lah ni..:p). after that dpt no, aku no 86, acu=85... after tu, g anta no giliran ngn sijil2 kat tempat temuduga..bgnan apa ntah.. masa anta, proses temuduga no 5 kot..haha..aku n acu g kantin..lapa beb, x sarap lg.. tp kantin kecik beno..n ada 2 akak join, dorang amik guru siswazh,sorang tu br dpt anak, nk settle down kat kdh coz husband dia take ovr fam bisnes.akak lg sorang byk pngalaman..umo dia dlm 37..dia bitau aaa..dia pnah jd gstt..byk kali dok cite psl gstt dia tu..dia pnah kejebah human resource..so dia penah intebiu org..so dia leh tau apa interviewer akan tny..ada la tips2 yg dia bg..akk ni fun to be..ade je cite..dah ada 5 org anak..dtg dr kulim..jaoh gile...

after that g naik atas bangunan tu balik..masa tu no 20++...dia ckp, masuk 5 5 org.. so kami kira2..oklah lepa jela situ wpun ramai mnusia kat situ. mls nk turun naik tangga..hehe... 2 2 org cm org gila kt situ..kitorang minum je masa kat kantin..so time dh tghari, prot lapo..dok berlawak bodoh je 2 2 org..tgu punya tgu..kui 1245 cmtu, kitorang masuk, nasib kami kena dlm 1 grup.so acu no need to wait for me la..masuk je..dia bitau sorang dlm 1 1/2 minit je..bitau pl diri, nama,umo,keje,konvo,lesen.after tu, dia tny soalan am, jawab je kalo tau..soalan yg dia tny, pasal seleseme bab1 tu, sape perdna menteri 2nd, after tu, sapa timb. perd ment yg xjd perd.menteri..yg tu je kot..last dia ckp, balik doa2 la.. haha~~ dlm atiku=kompem xdpt dh ni..haha..aku tgk suma dlm bilik tu average je..xde sape menonjol xde sapa lemah..huhu..

kami kuar bilik temuduga dlm kui 1.tehn tros g mekdi star parade..lapo...:D the pusing2 tk kasut, baju..xde bekenan..so balik.. balik je, on pc, tgk dvd..malas g opis..haha..letih gile..tgk dvd pun leh trtido..

n for the first time of my life..aku hadiri temuduga yg ramai gila org, yg kena tgu sampai naik kematu montot..hehe..

*gambar yg 1st tu, gamba belah jwatan pembntu tadbir n pen peg tadbir...

*2nd pic tu ada mak bapak yg dok tgu anak2 depa..:D

kehidupan ini..

time:11.44pg..
date: 07 may 2009
mood:sick..flu. + missing my chenta ati..
story:
it's been a while..
aaaa...xde idea..aaaa..lamenye xmenulis blog.. idea pun dah xde..
2ari lepas, bestday arwah ayah, 5 may.. sama ngn bestday cik lynn..cam biasa, wish for her, pray for him.. dlm sms aku anta ke cik lynn, ada la pasal kawen2 ni, dia reply mms, kriteria looking:1-gaji 2.5k-4k, 2-life insurance cover >60k, 3- kete >honda city 4- umah semi D or above...
aku balas balik..satu je dia tinggal, calon mesti single n available..haha..susah gak ye kalo keje pegawai ni, gaji besar, kete besar, lelaki pun takut nk rapat...:)
tu kesah org.. kesah aku?erm... xtahu le.. awai bulan nk g jb, chenta ati xkasik, tros g kl, sbb ptg tu, boss bitau ada brita baik n buruk..buruknye, dia nk kick out aku..yela ekonomi merosot..blablabaiknya, dia tlg crkan keje utk aku..kampeni kawan dia..lawan je..aku just bitau aku nk keje sini lagik, aku dah selesa kat sini..ape lagi aaa..ntahla.. aku bitau, kalo aku xperform baek punya utk projek mlm nnt, n masa tu aku dpt keje lain, aku get out, if not, aku nk stay sini...tp aku still cr keje lain..tp aku takut.... aku takut nk menghadapi keje baru, suasana baru, boss, baru, collegue baru..aaaaaa.. first thing first aku takut xleh perform ngn baik....aku nk mintak gaji tinggi pun takut..aku xtau strengh aku...:(
skang ni seleseme lak.. sok nk g Titi Hayun..leh ke sehat..:( ...
nk out..penin, ngntok..letih..rs nk collapse..:(
uwaaa

earthhour..

smlm ada ttp lampu?
aku ttp suma suis dlm umah aku..dr suis lampu, kipas, tv, peti es...main switch je yg x ttp..heehe..lepak ngn mak aku kt dpn umah..sambil baca novel..:)
ape pun...wpun kecik je yg aku wat...yg korang wat..kiita ttp sapot earthhour..:)
Anda Mampu Mngubahnya!!

i don't need a man!

is there any man for me out there??a man who is a 'man'!!kenape yg dok jumpa sumanya lelaki yg berjiwa saks!berperangai saks!!br dpt brita, si dia telah ada awek baru..huhu..ptt xjawab kol n msg aku dlm 2 mgu nih.. ade citer baru ye.. yg b+ sedeh..after aku g sane tros jd camni.knape ye..claim to b so workaholic...n act aku xpecaya dia memasang awek lain..haha..tulus jiwa btol aku nih...minat mancing ikan ke mancing awek?aaaaaa..dahla tetibe xleh nk tdo lak... what should i do..xpe ke kalo aku nk call his sis tomorrow..ades..nk tpon ke xnak..mmmm....i just want to clear the things up.. hey man! b a man lah..jd Jantan sket...settle suma brla cr awek lain.. i think i still can accept if he had told me first..nih aku dgr dr mulut org lain lak..dahla 2 3 menjak nih asek rindu arwah ayah je...g sane ingatkan leh nk menumpang kaseh kat ayah dia..huhu..xdapek..;( rindu si dia jugak...tp dia xrindu aku rupanya..kenape ye ada lelaki mcm nih..tp slalo lelaki2 yg wat aku mcm ni, idop dia xkan aman, bahagia..huh...i'm not cursing him..tp pecaya la hukum karma, whats goes around comes around!!! who knows..u got sister my dear..n someday u'll get daughter..jadila manusia yg ada perasaan..jgn zalim sgt cik abe...aku nih dh byk mngalah... wpun prinsip aku mngalah x semestinya kalah..huhu~~aku dh benci ngn love..ada apa dgn cinta??

kawan..

banyak kawan banyak ragam...
xdak kawan, xde garam .. yela kalo idop sorang2, xde kawan umpama makan lauk xbergaram..huhu..xcukup asamnya, pedas,masin, manisnya ...
hari ini seorang kawan mluahkan perasaan pasal kawan yg lagik sorang..
ala suma pun kawan2.. stakat gunakan kawan utk kepentingan tu biasa la..aku dah selalu terkena ..baik kawan lelaki jua kawan pompuan..sama je..just kalo kalo kita ikhlas waktu "digunakan.." xyah pk lagik k?wat pe pk panjang2..wat semak otak je.aku nih xde la baik beno...jgn bandingkan kawan itu ngn aku..huhu..aku just baik ngn org yg aku selesa..tp cam biasa aaa..xsetiap masa kita bleh ada utk seseorang..sbb tuh la kawan..jgn amik pot sgt,layan je...
now..u olredi married..ur life surround by ur husband..kawan, kawan gak tp xlehla suma nak "yong" skali ke mana2 ngn membe2..kadang2 kawan xselesa, kadang2 membe2 xselesa..b4 married lain n after married lain..huhu..ape aku merapik nih..erk!! cam puaka niyang rapik lak..huhuh..
k la..tgu idea dtg..

kawan..this is just a thought...

love is all u need...

Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall.

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone… but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else, but it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

If love is the answer , can you please repeat the question?

Faith makes all things possible. Love makes them easy. I believe that to truly Love, is the ultimate __expression of the will to live. A heart that truly loves is forever young.

Love makes life so confusing, but without love would you really want to live?

Do you love me because I am beautiful or am I beautiful because I am loved?

Love me now, love me never, but if you love me, love me forever.

Three things of life that are most valuable - Love, self-confidence & friends.

To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.

Love is like heaven, but it can hurt like hell.

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?

He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is the most fatal.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Many a young lady does not realize just how strong her love for a young man is until he fails to pass the approval test with her parents.

Is it better for a woman to marry a man who loves her than a man she loves.

Give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says ‘For the woman I love’ and the second, ‘For my best friend.’

A good marriage is like a casserole, only those responsible for it really know what goes in it.

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

Love, true love, is that which can give the most without asking or demanding anything in return.

Where there is love, there is God also. ~ Leo Tolstoy ~

All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love. ~ Leo Tolstoy ~

Love cures people — both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it. ~ Dr. Karl Milnage ~

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love. ~ Sophocles ~

It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship. Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations. ~ Khalil Gibran ~

When they asked me what I loved most about life, I smiled and said you. ~ Tina ~

Just because you know someone doesn’t mean you love them, and just because you don’t know people doesn’t mean you can’t love them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in a heartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heart to strangers more often. You never know when God will throw that pass at you. ~ Heather Grove ~

Love… What is love? Love is to love someone for who they are, who they were, and who they will be. ~ Chris Moore ~

Why do you say you love me, if you are only going to leave me? ~ Julia ~

;Love is like a river, always changing, but always finding you again somewhere down the road. ~ Kelly Elaine ~

Love is a language spoken by everyone , but understood only by a heart. ~ Shirley Rindani ~

People need love even when they don’t deserve it. ~ Nikki Ledbetter ~

For every word you say, another piece of my heart you take. ~ Tiara Johnson ~

Maybe God put a few bad people in your life, so when the right one came along you’d be thankful. ~ Andrea Kiefer ~

Love the heart that hurts you, But never hurt the heart that loves you.

Love me for a reason, let the reason be love.

It doesn’t take a reason to love someone, but it does to like someone. You don’t love someone because you want to, you love someone because you are destined too. It’s because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason, but you always come up with the answer, No reason!

Love is the beginning of all the joy which nature has store for us.

Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you still feel you can take it. Never say you don’t love a person when you can’t let go

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

ermm xtau btol ke tak , itu aku?? heheh..

something yg kita xperasan?

1. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 5 orang dalam dunia ini menyayangi anda dan
sanggup mati kerana anda.

2. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 15 orang dalam
dunia ini menyayangi anda dalam beberapa cara.

3. Sebab utama seseorang membenci anda adalah kerana dia ingin menjadi seperti anda.

4.Senyuman daripada anda boleh membawa kebahagiaan kepada seseorang, walaupun dia
tidak menyukai anda.

5. Setiap malam ada seseorang mengingati anda sebelum dia tidur.

6. Anda amat bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.

7.Kalau bukan kerana anda, seseorang itu tidak akan hidup bahagia.

8.Anda seorang yang istimewa dan unik.

9. Seseorang yang anda tidak ketahui menyayangi anda.

10. Apabila anda membuat kesilapan yang sangat besar, ada hikmah disebaliknya.

11. Sekiranya anda merasakan anda dipinggirkan, fikirlah semula; mungkin anda yang meminggirkan mereka.

12. Apabila anda terfikir anda tidak mempunyai peluang untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang anda ingini, mungkin anda tidak akan memperolehinya, tetapi sekiranya anda percaya pada diri sendiri lambat-laun anda akan memperolehinya.

13. Kenangilah segala pujian yang anda terima. Lupakan segala maki hamun, caci dan cela.

14. Jangan takut untuk meluahkan perasaan anda; anda akan merasa senang bila seseorang mengetahuinya.

15. Sekiranya anda mempunyai sahabat baik, ambillah masa untuk memberitahunya yang dia adalah yang terbaik.

baru2 nih terbaca lagik benda nih..btolkan..kita mmg xperasan...xtaula kamo, tp aku slalo xperasan..ermmm..cuba2la nk berubah pasnih..mmm..leh ke nk berubah...

aku susah nk berubah bila ada org yg maseh nk menyebut ttg hal dulu2..cth bila aku rs aku dah berubah menjadi org yg dapat menerima, bertolak ansur, "dia" still anggap aku mcm dulu..sampai aku dah malas nk pk..huhu~~ xpelah, abaikan "dia"...tp dia xtau aku mmg dah berubah..eloo kawan!manusia idop mesti ada perubahan..:)